Monday, February 06, 2012
The titles of my various blogs are very confusing.
Wait, are blogs uncool now? Dang it, so what was I supposed to use, live journal?
Anyway, that really isn't the point. I wanted to write something but I'm currently on a Mac and I don't have Word. And I can't make a video because no one watches my stuff, and it'd get way too long.
ANYWAY.
My friend is leaving the country, for I don't know how long. Now let me just clarify that although I love this girl and she's awesome, we really aren't all that super close.
However, I feel really sad that she's leaving, when really the same thing happened between me and pretty much everyone from my secondary school class. We pretty much left each other behind as we moved on to new schools and stuff, didn't we? So what is it about going overseas that is so daunting for us?
The fact that we might never see each other again? But let's face it; when we graduate from our previous schools, we won't keep in contact with any of our old classmates. (Okay, I'm being pessimistic here, but really, the probability of us still hanging out like we did before is pretty much zero.) But somehow it feels different when we say, "Oh, we're graduating in three days." as compared to one of us saying, "Guys, yeah I'm going to Melbourne." I don't even know how long she's going, but probably more than 2 years? I have no idea.
Either way, she's leaving the country, which is the whole point of this post. (And, by the way, I feel really weird typing a blog post, since blogs have long since died.) And she's not leaving for a holiday or whatever, she's going to study. Which, considering she's not Singaporean in the first place (she's from Hong Kong. Booyah.), really shouldn't cause that much of an effect on me, but it does. And since, as we all know, I am super chill about losing contact with people, this is uncharted territory for me. Maybe because everything's changing this year.
For example:
1. I'm going into college, which seeing how the schedules and classes and content change drastically, is something to be afraid of.
2. I've lost contact with not only my friends from secondary school, but also a friend of mine whom I used to be really close to (at least online). And early this year (or was it late last year?) I realized that he and I have lost everything we ever had in common and we're really just... For lack of a better phrase, Strangers Again. I know that sounds all act-emo and oh-no-I-wanna-kill-myself, but seriously.
3. Change of school environment, which adds to the stress.
And more, but it stresses me out having to type them out.
Also, on a completely unrelated note, since no one reads blogs anymore, I feel that it is safe for me to confess that I have very different tastes from people (concerning the opposite sex).
For example, I was telling my sister about a really cool leader in my school whom I felt was kind of attractive, but all she said was that he looked like a little boy. In the end I had to do the lame thing where you claim that the guy isn't photogenic, to save my pride (and his).
But he's kind of cute what!
Okay forget it; I shouldn't argue my point. And this really just makes me fit the whole teenage girl stereotype. I swear I'm not. Come on, guys, you know me better than that. Guys? Guys, where're you going?
@ 6:59 AM
